Sunday, March 18, 2012

Time for Goodbyes

Life seems to be full of hellos and goodbyes. How delightful it would be to just say hello and goodbye was never a word to deal with.

I said goodbye to my sweetie years ago as I watched his mind slowly succumb to the ravages of Alzheimers. It was what they call a 'long goodbye'. Then, there was the final goodbye.

It was a year ago Jan. 3rd that we lost him. Tough year. I have struggled and struggled to find my way out of that deep, dark hole. I have had help from so many wonderful friends and of course, my family. But, I realized recently that I was not feeling good about this blog anymore. It dragged up so much out of me, remembering all the pain. There is a saying 'You can't move forward, if you keep looking back'. or something like that. I have gotten to a point in my life where I need to move forward.

Don't think for one minute that I don't miss Elbert as much as I did a year ago. I will always love and miss him terribly. Yesterday was a rough day, I cried alot just remembering all our wonderful times together. I got depressed. I was sad. And, I felt myself falling down in that dark hole again. To save myself and my sanity I must keep putting one foot in front of the other.

I have decided to close this blog. It's just too difficult. HOWEVER.... I would never want to lose my friends that I have made here. I just hope you will hop on over to my other blog Living Life On Main Street. We will move forward together and that would make me happy. You all have been the dearest and most loyal friends. I wish you all the best as you continue on your struggle and hopefully I'll see you commenting and keeping me updated on Living Life on Main Street.

God Bless each of you.


Dolores said...

I understand your feelings completely. I know the time will come when I'll be doing the same thing with my blog.

You've given me so much strength and inspiration as I travel this Alzheimer's journey...and I thank you for that!

You know I'll continue following you on your life journey.
Big hugs from Texas!

Susannah said...

Hello Latane, I really do understand your feelings. I'm sure it could really draw you down. You have been a faithful and true wife to Elbert. You must move forward. This blog is where I started to follow you....seems like a long time ago. I have already followed you over to your other marvelous blog - "Living Life on Main Street". See you there! May God bless you and keep you.

rkbsnana said...

God bless you. Absolutely will follow you.

A Colorful World said...

I think this is best right now, and I hope all your friends on here will join you on the other blog and stay in touch. Love you, Mom!

Peggy said...

Hi Latane, I fully understand the dilemma you are in regarding this blog, are you just closing it down or deleting altogether.
I ask because I think it has been a tower of strength for people going through the same sad journey and if it remains here they can still drop in if the need to find answers or encouragement arises.
I will continue to follow you down Main St, (hugs)

Carol Noren Johnson said...

Going to mainstreet with you.

Carol Noren Johnson said...

How do I get to your other blog?

Stacey said...

Latane, you have been such a blessing to me! I am so glad I found you and have been able to see your strength through your heartfelt posts. I can understand your feelings, and I am definitely going to be keeping in touch! I'm just so very glad that you're not saying a complete goodbye...phew! That thought was making me sad. I will definitely be keeping up with you on your other blog! God bless! :) Thank you for sharing that part of your journey with us and sharing your heart. We have been truly blessed for it! Hugs!

Unknown said...

Thank you for sharing! I share your pain, have lost a love one too,to Alzheimer.My mother in law was dear to me I miss her and it was very hard watching her fad away. I lost my mother too. Now my husband has a brain tumor,thought I was going to lose him.He is doing great for now.This why I started a blog.I will follow you and pray for you. Be strong.Joann

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Buttons Thoughts said...

Marie sent me my Mom has Alzheimer's and she told me of your journey.
I am so sorry you had to go through this I know how hard it is.
I know in time you will forget the pain as we all did in childbirth and remember all those good times. Hugs to you and thank you for writing your journey down. I am off to check out your other blog. Take care and smile.You are and amazing wife B

Linda Born said...

I understand completely. God bless you, and will see you on Main Street! Hugs and prayers, Linda

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