In October 2007 we were blessed with a new grandson. Our youngest grandchild was already 15 so it was doubly precious, this new life. I think that Tighe coming into this world gave me a renewed sense of hope and life. I dealt every day with life slipping away and now we had Tighe to bring joy and love and lightness. Oh, how I longed to hold that child in my arms.
So, I flew to see the new baby and his two brothers, mom and dad!! Oh how I needed this.
Elbert had been sundowning badly of late. For the first time he got a little violent with me, shoving me away from the door when I wouldn't let him leave. I hoped that this would not continue and it has not, thank the good Lord.
I felt trapped in the cocoon of Elbert's disease. I couldn't break out. He needed me too much. I was with him, listening out for him, helping him 24/7. I seldom had any fun. I'd missed several support group meetings which was not good for me. I missed church, lunch out with my girl friends. I wondered what would become of me.
And............... I walked into the door and took that baby in my arms and I knew what would become of me. I looked into his face knowing that Tighe needed his Grandmother and I needed him. We instantly bonded and so it is a year and a half later. Whenever I can get away I wallow in that childs hugs and slobbery kisses and cry when he blows me goodbye kisses. He has been the saving factor in my life. I will survive... for life goes on and is good.